Living. Loving. Laughing.

Speak Now

2011-01-10T11:56:00.003+08:00

My friend told me na maganda daw ang bagong album ni Taylor Swift nah "Speak Now"... So I did a little music review reading about the album. And bumped into Taylor's official site and read the story behind her album...

A little part of it:
'Speak now or forever hold your peace,' the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone's heart race, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you.' When we should've said 'I'm sorry.' When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

You can read more @ http://www.taylorswift.com/music..

She's right... SO right. Actually I can relate... But I'll hold my peace muna... But not forever.. *wink

Oh soo Thankful.. :)

2010-11-23T09:04:00.003+08:00

Thankful for every day...

Thankful for the BEST family..

Thankful for the BEST friends...

and Thankful for the BEST person to LOVE...

I may not have the best things in the world, but I have the BESTEST people... Oh soooo THANKFUL.. :)

OUT of the FB world?

2010-11-18T12:04:00.002+08:00

When I logged in my FB account this morning (11:55) the above image appears... huhuhuhuhu.. What the CRAP happened??

It also says:

Sorry, something went wrong.

We're working on getting this fixed as soon as we can.

Waaaaaaaaaaa! Please fix it as soon as you can FB people! I don't want to lose my friends, and my whole FB account! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

THE HORROR! :(

10/17/10 with J and M

2010-10-18T13:00:00.010+08:00

I don't' want to make a super detailed post about yesterday... One thing lang masasabi q...

I had SUPER FUN... Thanks to mareng Jhet... And M...

Rob with mareng Jhet...

and Buglasan and dinner with M... weeee!

Un lang update q.. hahahaha..

sa susunod! Bye! :P

Totally GONE

2010-09-30T12:52:00.004+08:00

Matagal2x nah rin ito sa draft q kaya go na sa post!

Galing lang aq ng work no'n and an idea suddenly popped in my head...

"Kung aq ipakuha ang wart sah aq mata... Hmmm."

Actually a wart lives [not in my eye] but under my eye. Its been a lodger since I was in college (2nd year yata aq no'n). And year by year it occupies a larger space (in other words lumalaki ito. hehehe). Hindi rin xa magandang tignan and sometimes sumasagabal nah sa mga paningin q.

Kaya then and there, nagdecide aq na ipakukuha q nah talaga. Not minding the 'operation' that I will be going through.

So I went to one derma clinic in town. Waited for like 30 minutes (kac may cust pah c doc) and read some magazines pampalipas oras...

Then the dr called my family name... Weeeew! Eto nah...

"Hi! How are you..." Paunang bati ni doctora..
"Uki ra doc.... :)" I answered.

Hindi q alam kung kinabahan bah aq no'n. All I know is I really want to get that mini bulk off my eye (under my eye). Hikhikhik...

I told the doctor about my wart and what I would like her to do about it..

She first examined it and after a few minutes she confirms that it was really a wart... She explained to me the process to get it... SUSUNUGIN daw (thru laser)... The horror!

"Ahh.. Uki. So can we do it now?" I asked..
Parang nah shock c doctora. Kac parang I'm really determined to get rid of the wart.

"Ahm... Ofcourse. It will not take too long and it will be like an insect bite."
--What kind of insect? The small or the big once? -a que in my head... :D

"Cge ah... Pyr!"

The dr told her secretary to bring me in their 'operating room' and told me to wait as she prepares the things that she will be needing for the 'operation'.. Hahahaha

Minutes later, pumasok nah c doc...
"Nervous?"she asked..
"Naaah! Wala man.. :)"I answered.

She applied something under my eye and sets it for about 15 minutes. It was a cream and its purpose is for me not to feel the pain when she injects something under my eye. Oh my!

15 minutes passed, at again pumasok nah c doctora at my dalang syringe... Oh my again!

She told me to lay down and look up so that my eyeballs will be @ the upper part of my eye...
She held a syringe, with a 1 inch needle and injected it in my left eyebag.

Weeew! Tama nga c doc.. I never felt a single pain when she injected it... Ang power talaga ni cream!

Again I waited for yet again another 15 minutes for the medicine or I guess the anesthesia to take effect.

After pumasok again c doc...
"Ready?"she asked...
"As ever!" I replied.

She told me to close my eyes.
All I can hear is the 'thing' she will be using [to sunog2x the wart] made a weird sound.
And seconds later I can feel a little pain and smell something burning! Oh my! Nasusunog nah mata q? hahahaha

"Done."she told me.
"That was it?"I asked..
"You want more?" She jokes.
"No thanks..." I answered and we both laugh.. Harharhar.. FC naman!

Tiningnan q mata q... The wart that was before ka kulay q became dark brown. Parang mole. :)

The dr prescribed me something. It was a cream for me to apply everyday para matanggal c brown thingy and told me to be back after 1 week to check if may natira.

Then after, I paid the bills and went out...
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The mini bulk that was with me for like 3 years was now gone... But it leaves a mark in me that reminds me that once it was there. [But sabi ni doc nah if I continually apply that cream it will be totally gone. So bonnga!]

And now, (present) I can't anymore see or even feel a wart in my eye... Its totally gone now.

And just a stupid notion came... Baka that wart is w/ another person nah at doon na naman maghahasik ng lagim.. Hahahaha.. what a weird notion!

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Weew! madami2x nah pala ang mga draft sa blog q... I should find time to finish all these.... Pwo later... Hahahaha.. Eto nah muna for now...

Bye2x. Keep safe and Godbless! :D

2010-09-25T13:29:00.004+08:00

Miss q nah kau lahat... :(

Not your ORDINARY

2010-09-16T14:59:00.002+08:00

Isang araw... habang break time.

Boy: Oi! What's up. You think I can get your number?

Girl: Hmmm... I don't know, I just met you. :P

Boy: Hey, I'm not tryin' to say anything. I think we might just have a lot in common.

Girl: Whe? Ok, well maybe we can be friends...

Boy: Ok, so what if I give you my number, is that alright?

Girl: Ok, but it doesn't mean I'm gonna text you or anything. Maybe I'll just see you around...

Boy: Don't be afraid, I'm just looking for conversation. Hey girl don't even trip it's a friendship that you're facin'... *smiles

Girl: Well I have a lot of friends and I've known them for a while, plus you're comin' on so strong and that's really not my style.

Boy: Ok then... Well maybe we can just talk.

Girl: Aren't we talkin' right now?

Boy: I know we are talking right now. But what are we talking' about? Hmmm... I'm just figuring out how I can know you somehow...

Girl: Whe? whe? whe?

Boy: Well look, I'm not tryin to be part of your daily routine or anythin'...

Girl: Well that's good! I wasn't gonna make you part of nothin' anyway.. :P
Ok. Go ahead do your thing, I'm going now.

Boy: Wait. Well let me get that number just in case you don't wonder...

Girl: Haizt! You really wont quit and you're kinda kulet!

Boy: Well I think you're kinda cute and I'm diggin' that attitude. Come on let me get that number, I'll be the one texting you...

Girl: Ok get your phone and save this number: 09058111543... :P

Boy: L-E-O-F... Alright I got it, and now its stored...

Hindi nya alam nah wrong number binigay q...

*Evil smiles and laughs.. Hahahaha... You think you will get my number that easy?? No way! :P

*Sings: Not Your Ordinary Girl by Kyla ♫♪

Coz baby I'm
Not your ordinary,
Girl from down the street,
Always busy working, got to stay on track, got to watch my back from distractions,
And I'm the kind of lady
That stays on top of all things
Cant let nothin' faze me that's the way it is coz that's how I live...

Bleeeeh...

HAPPY

2010-09-14T15:39:00.004+08:00

Happy because I know that I've made the right decision. Quitting my previous job gave me new opportunities, new experiences, and I must say HAPPINESS.
"I like my job!" It's easy and I'm learning a lot. Plus I can chit chat with my co-workers, listen to music, and TEXT! nyaaaaaaaa. I'm working and enjoying at the same time. (hindi gaya noon...)
I like the breaks. There are two breaks, both 30 minutes each. (that's w/ pay ha...) And NO exact time for bio break. Kahit anong oras pede mag CR, so buungga!

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Hindi lang work nagpapasaya sa akin. Andyan si Thad, my baby nephew who never fails to put a smile on my face.

My friends and our warla2x moments. Saya talaga! (Miss q nah cla tuloy ng boongga!)

At ang rami pang mga bagay nah nakakapagpasaya sa akin nowadays... hehehehe... ♥♥♥

Eto lang for now.. bayeee!

Keep safe and God bless y'all.. :)

Have You Ever...

2010-09-03T16:46:00.006+08:00

Have you ever lost a love,
a love that you thought would last.
Have you ever felt pain,
the pain that still lingers and never stops.
Have you ever cried,
thinking when will this end.
Have you ever wondered if his love was true,
and how he truly feels for you.

Have you ever thought of leaving,
but can't do anything but stay.
Have you ever tried letting go,
but love is too strong to walk away.
Have you ever said goodbye,
to someone you want to stay.
Have you ever prayed for someone not to leave,
but did anyway.

Have you ever wished for death,
cause you thought you're better off gone anyway.
Have you ever thought of not breathing,
cause you believe it's easier than feeling the pain.
Have you thought of giving up,
cause in your life nothing really goes right.
Have you ever wished that these was all a dream,
and forget everything.

Have you ever felt this way?

I have...
I have felt and dealt this all.

Escaping

2010-08-30T19:07:00.007+08:00

In my 20 years of existence, I've experience major-major happenings in my life... Hihihi

Nalilibog nah nga aq what to write here... So many things to say, but no guts to spill it anyway.

Pero may major-major happening lately that proved to me that life is still BEAUTIFUL. I went to M A G - A S O F A L L S with friends.. :)

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Early sunday morning, taking the 2nd [or I guess 3rd trip](5:00 am), with Jhet and Biya.b, we went off for Mabinay (heading for Janj's house).

It was a nice long trip. I love the part where the cold air hits my face -- it's a very nice feeling I must say; the part where all I can see are shades of green -- the like where mapapa 'WOW' ka talaga; and the roller coaster ride -- every time the bus makes a long turn at ako'y mapapa 'weeeeeeeee'.

We arrive at Mabinay around 8 or 9 (lost track of time.. hihihihi). And went to Janj's house to prepare (prepared things to bring like food, blahblahblah). 12 noon we headed for MAG-ASO. (weeeee! excited mode). Again, it was a long ride (kasi our destination is @ Kabankalan and that is in the other side of Negros Oriental Island).

After the long ride, we took another long, bumpy, rocky ride... Sumakay kami ng 'pedipot', grabe ang experience! BASTA! hahahaha

Then after all the rides, finally we arrived @ our final destination, MAG-ASO falls at last! It was breathtaking!!! Basta breathtaking! period! (see picture below nalang.. hahaha)

Even with the not so friendly weather, it didn't stop us from swimming, exploring, and touring the place. Butterflies all around, cold air, nice view -- ALL WAS WORTH IT. Indeed life is beautiful.. :)

Every time I stare @ the breathtaking falls, seems like it makes my mind blank. Blank with worries, problems, and pain. (sana I can stare at the falls forever.. ) Parang all problems were washed out by the water from the falls... (sana do'n na aq palagi)

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And uwian time :(
Around 4pm we said our goodbyes to MAG-ASO falls.. haizt...

We spend the night @ Janj's crib... Then early monday morning, Jhet, Bea and I headed for Dumaguete.. (kasi we have work pah eh)

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Credits to Janisha&Jheck , Inay, and Mark Dave... :)

TIRED

2010-08-25T16:07:00.005+08:00

TIRED OF EVERYTHING

Updates

2010-08-18T21:31:00.003+08:00

HIRED

Just this morning I was interviewed by a company (SPi) I applied a job for. Together with me was two girls. I was hired right after the interview [but sadly the two girls didn't make it]. I was kinda sad cause (1)I didn't expect that I will be hired that day and will start training the next week; I want to rest for a while and was planning to go to Mabinay, and Mag-aso with friends. (2) I didn't get the position that I wanted; I want the position which deals with editing pictures [or whatever] thru Adobe Photoshop and Illustrator coz that's the workI love doing. (Pwo uki nalang, 'new experience' ^_^) (3)My friend, Jhet was not called for the same interview, meaning magkakahiwalay kami... haizt...

SINGAPORE

My Tita offered me a job in Singapore. 'WOW!', I thought... But with my age and with my experience with work I think I'm not yet ready to be in a foreign land. Parang I'm not yet equipped to be far from my family and be alone, and do things alone.. (wala aqng kilala don if ever.. )But maybe I'll take the offer... SOON. :)

MOVIE

I watched 'Grown Ups' this afternoon. It was really a funny film.. No dull moments at all. I wasn't able to get some quotes from the movie (like I always do with mostly all the movies I've watched) coz I was laughing the whole time. The movie tells to cherish your childhood... Basta watch nalang ka.u... nyaaaa!

A RESTING HEART

I keep on turning down suitors... Don't know what's up with me, but I just don't feel like it.. Parang my heart really wants to rest from everything muna.. KAPOI kac... hahahahahaha.. Enjoy naman ang single life... No heart aches, no crying moments, no PAIN! :)

Will sleep now... Tomorrow will be a long day. -_-

God bless y'all! :)

Paxenxa sa grammar.. so tired nah...

Rascal Flatts

2010-08-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

I so love the band Rascal Flatts nah... I like them before cause of their song What Hurts the Most (nakakaiyak talaga vid non.. *sniff), but now, super like ko nah sila... :)

Here are some of their songs (with little lyrics)...

My Wish

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too..

--ganda no? lyrics pah yan.. I advice you to listen to the whole song... :)

Better Now

If i had one call to make
I would dial yesterday and warn myself
Tell my lips the words to say
Not let you just walk away
With someone else
With someone else

Next time, i wont suffer this kind of pain
Own my mistakes
Not just pass off all the blame
If you were here, we could figure this out
Then i wouldn't be bitter,
I'd just be better now

--Like!

I'm Moving On

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

--Oi.. Relate.. :)

Here are some of their songs.. Gusto q nga i-dload album nila eh.. Pero wala aqng source.. *wink..

Bye2x...

Why Stay...

2010-07-28T13:26:00.002+08:00

Together with a friend, I applied for another job. Kasi naman ayaw q nah sa tinatrabahoan q...

Reasons why (bigatin nah reason lang):

They don't care about their agents. They only care for their account.
--Walang clinic. Paano kapag magkakasakit kami? At saan na ang vitamins nah promise nila that comes in 3 types!!?? duh?!
--We don't have our own headphones. Paano kapag may sakit ang unang gumamit ng headphone, so mahahawaan kami... dava??!
--Our break is for 45 minutes [all in all]. 2 bio breaks for 10 mins. and 1 lunch break for 25 minutes... hello? Break ba yan? I can't even rest or just relax myself for 25 mins dahil ubos na oras q sa pagkain.. grrr...

No FUN.
--The environment is not friendly and enjoyable at all! (para naman maganahan kami sa calls namin dba?)
--Ano ba ang ginagawa ng HR department, wala man lang clang ginagawang pakulo? Wala man lang team building, oh outing man lang... dapat naman kami mag happy2x pansamantala, hindi puro trabaho lang!

SALARY issue.
--bulong-bulongan pah nuon nah may ganyang nangyayari sa company nila, kahit sa Cebu... At naranasan q talaga.. So goodbye!

Actually, our supervisor promoted us... But I declined the offer. Duh, why bother? Why stay in a company who gives you nothing but headache, and disappointments... dava?!

It was not a good experience for a first job, but I've learned a lot! And some people made it worth it for my 3 months stay..

A COOL Supervisor.
--Cool? what I mean is IDIOT... hahahaha... Super kalog ang utak! Adik to be exact. He have taught us so much, not just his stupid ways but life's lessons as well.

Stupid Friends.
--I've met new set of friends... 3 stupid girls.. hahaha..

So e-exit na talaga aq...

Bye2x QFN... I appreciate your business.. Have a nice day!!! :)

Just to Think About

2010-07-20T18:25:00.002+08:00

Pag may nag tanong sayo:

"Bakit mo minamahal ang taong ayaw sayo? Eh, marami namang iba dyan..."

Ito isagot mo:

"Pag nauhaw kaba, iinom kaba ng tubig sa inodoro dahil tubig din yon?"

Hmmm... tama nga naman.. *wink

The Song

2010-07-19T09:26:00.002+08:00

The 'song' was my favorite since my high school days... [Since it was first played on music channels and radios].

The song is simple and soothing to the ears. I listen to this song cause it calms me and makes me at peace.

I've liked the song so much better in my college days... It made me kilig every time I hear the song. It also reminds me of someone special. And this song was also my music choice to make a video for a school project (and also for him).

But now, that someone is 'singing' the song also. But I know it is not for me. And now, I am starting to hate the song... The song that I used to listen when I miss him, the song I used to love cause it reminds me of him. Hahaizt... I really love the song pah naman... But... :(

"Cause there's something in the way you look at me...♫♪"
But that was BEFORE.. :(

Now I Know

2010-07-11T14:31:00.004+08:00

Current feeling:

BETRAYED...

CHEATED...

DISAPPOINTED..

UPSET.

I have all the respect for you people... But now, swerte.an rah ug naai gamay!

UNDECIDED

2010-07-09T13:50:00.004+08:00

You say yes
Then it's no
You say you'll stay
Then you go
Your undecided now
So what are you going to do

Fisrt you say you do and then you don't
And then you say you will and then you won't
Your undecided now
So what are you gonna to do

As the song goes by Ames Brothers.

Now, I am still UNDECIDED.

"To LEAVE or NOT TO LEAVE?"

I've think this over... over... over... then over again. When I come to a decision, certain things happen that will change my mind again. I sooooo hate this... really!

It's so hard to make a choice when your whole future depends on it. I should make a small decision that could either make or break me; make me happy or sad, could make my future better... or a nightmare!

I know that wrong decisions may either lead me to the right way... but I'm too tired of having the wrong decisions already. I want it sure... and fixed! But I know ang labo mangyari...

That's why I'm really having a HARD time...

TABANG...

So help me GOD... :(

Things I'm MISSING

2010-07-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

ʚϊɞ I miss school. Going to school is a lot better than going to work I must say...

ʚϊɞ I miss photoshop. I miss editing/designing because those are the things I like doing the most..

ʚϊɞ I miss Pylon and CS classmates. I miss the people who I was with my whole college life.

ʚϊɞ I miss my friends. I miss having worry free talks, the bonding and the lols with them..

ʚϊɞ I miss YOU. I wish that I could hold you now... I wish that I could touch you now... I wish that I could talk to you... be with you somehow.

ʚϊɞ I miss being worry and stress free. Period.

I've got to accept that this is the reality in the new chapter that I'm in. I will forever miss you... and until we meet again. B)

The Experience

2010-07-06T11:21:00.000+08:00

Dahil ayaw maging unemployed, I applied for a job weeks after graduation. "Unfortunately" I got accepted from the first company na cnobukan q. Itago nalang natin sa pangalang Qualfon. :) I was part of the fortunate generation 2.

For three weeks we had our training. It was kinda nice (kasi training pah eh), I got to meet new friends and had new experiences as well. At the end of the first week of training, we had our first calls (the horror nah). Every ring makes my heart beat fast. Afraid if it will be an irate caller; an issue out of my control or a call being monitored for QA. Those were just few of my fears. From the first experience, I had a thought that I will never like this job.

Our trainer told us that to think that way was normal. It will become more easier daw if we'll have more experience and knowledge from the account. Yap, he was right. As we were farther trained about the account, gained more knowledge from it and got more experience in taking calls, I was already confident at work. But that didn't made me to like my job.

The job was like going to school. We were being graded each day. Being new, I even failed once. I got an auto fail (but I guess that was not a strong offense coz I was not terminated for it.) That should be the sign na mag reresign nah aq... But I never gave up easily.

One month passed, and the work was more easier. I learned a technique to make my calls uncomplicated. And because of that I got better grades. 100 % scores, both internal and external monitoring; and number of kudos calls also. At dahil naman jan, my supervisor even promised a promotion if I'll maintain that score.

It was a good thing in my part that I was doing well, but that didn't change my mind to like the job. (because I was never happy with it)

To resign was an option that didn't left my mind. When I'm about to resign, certain people change my mind and gives me strength to go on. But I won't let myself get stuck on something that I was never happy with... :(

So the experience doesn't end here... To be continued

Goodbye leofhila.blogspot.com... :(

2010-02-06T19:43:00.001+08:00

...

I'm saying goodbye to this blog nah... Sad but I have to. A lot of memories are in this blog nah dapat ko nah talagang kalimutan. I don't know why I'm doing this, but I feel nah this is the right choice.

I've poured lots of emotions on this blog, and I think I can't do it anymore. I guess I have to keep the emotions and the feelings for myself nalang. :(

To all the readers, to all nah naging friend ko ng dahil sa blog nah to, to all who shared their opinions and thoughts, to all na napapadaan lang, THANK YOU.

This night will be the last night of this blog coz I'll be deleting this account later tomorrow. Hindi ko pa alam if I'll be making a new account. I will really miss blogging as much as I miss this someone...:(

Now, I've realized something... I JUST CAN'T jud d.ai...:( (if u ask what, then it's for myself nalang...)

Goodbye leofhila.blogspot.com...

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

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Forgiving is Equal to Moving On

2010-01-31T11:54:00.001+08:00

Kahapon ko pa sana ito nah post, pwo nag karoon ng problema sa blogger... grrr

I don't know how to start this, but ang masasabi ko lang ay I'm HAPPY dahil atleast nagpapansinan nah kami ng x, y, z q... ahahaha

Someone told me that moving on comes with forgiving, kaya naman napag-isipan q na mas mabuti if we become friends. Dapat ko ng babaan PRIDE q. I don't want to keep the hatred anymore coz it's a very big burden rah and why should I consider him a stranger nga infact we were once part of each other. I have forgiven him already, and I hope he has forgiven me also.

That person was indeed right. Now I'm happy and I can really say that I've moved on nah. But moving on doesn't mean he has left my heart. I guess he will stay here forever. At wala nah talaga aqng magagawa dyan. Some people will really stay kahit anong pilit mo kunin xa sa puso mo, specially those people who means so much to you. He will leave a mark in my heart and forever be the first man ever that I dearly love.

If you people ask me about my love life, for now it's ZERO. I want it this way muna. I guess it will be this way for like five years. (But I can't really tell. This is my plan for the moment.)Concentrate muna aq sa studies ko and find work for my family and future family. For me uki na ang isang experience sa love. So tama na. I'll wait for that someone to be my LIFETIME PARTNER nah jud... [gluck naq... hehehe]

Sooo.. To those people who are having a hardtime moving on, I think the saying "Forgive and Forget" is for you.

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Malapit na ang Baleyntayn's Day, kaya ito ang sigaw naming mga loveless...

ahahahaha... Plan namin ito ng mga classmates ko. Sana ma2loy. Sana nga... hehehe

Gudevezzz... Keep safe and Godbless... :)

I Can't Help Myself But LOL...

2010-01-30T20:51:00.001+08:00

ahahahahahahahahaha... (kahit ngaun 2matawa parin aq...)

It started with Pelyn's (my CS friend/classmate) pictures. With Maibel, Arlie, Jeny and Mj (they are my CS friends/classmates pud) we commented on the pictures. Comments nah hindi basta2x... Mga "bulgar, bulabog, funny" comments. Basta, it was super fun.

The next night, it was Jeny's picture napud. We made fun of the pictures kaya it was super fun napud...

This night was my turn of kanchaws...

Who will not make fun of this photo. I look so big, with my tummy out. Waaa... I look so wasted. This picture was taken when we had our group overnyt. Kagagaling lang aq ni2 ng overnyt din (sa Pylon) kaya patay na patay ang 2log q, at hindi q namalayan nah kinunan aq ni Maibel(cya ang salarin... hehehehe).

Even though I look so *toooot* (I can't describe this photo man gud... heheheh) in this photo, it made me laugh so hard (ng dahil din sa mga comments. hehehehe).

This night is so SPLENDID... Maibel, Arlie, Jeny, Pelyn and Mj are some of the people who brings my stupidity out. Mga kabuang bah... hehehe... I'm really not myself when I'm with them. (I'm not that timid, shy girl when I'm with them jud.. kaya happy aq palagi when I'm with my ComSci family...)

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Sa uulitin... Mwah!

Someday It's Gonna Make Sense

2010-01-26T14:00:00.001+08:00

I don't know why it hurts me when now we just consider ourselves as "STRANGERS". (The pain when he left me is now slowly fading but another pain is starting to build.) It's when you have the best memories together, the happiest times as one, the greatest moments shared and all the laughs and the joys, but now you can't even say HI, look at him in the eye or just give him a smile. *sigh

Now it really makes me sad that their is this someone I don't come up to or in good terms with. Since we are classmates, it is REALLY HARD for me.

Now I don't hate him anymore. I've understand his faults and figured out my faults.

How I wish things will be better. That someday we can consider ourselves as friends nah.

I know we can't get those old times back, but I hope things will be better soon.

"And though it seems your sorrow never ends
Someday it's gonna make sense"

Someday it's gonna make sense jud...

Sunday

2010-01-24T20:32:00.001+08:00

Weeee! At long last, na binyagan nah si Baby Thad q. Cya ai ganap na Kristiyano na. axixixixixi [Na tagalan dahil naman kac hinintay pah na maka-uwi ang kanyang ama galing Manila.] Sayang at walang mga pics, hindi kac aq nagsilbing photographer sa event kanina. (Pwo bahala nah, may video naman. hehehehe)

Pagkatapos ng binyag, dumaretso kaagad aq sa Dauin (hindi nah aq sumali sa salo2x after the binyag.. hehehehe), namiesta kasama mga kaklase q. Magpapahuli ba naman aq.. axixixixi... Opcorz, we ate ng bonnga, tapos pumunta sa kanilang chapel para mag pray. char....

What's funny about this day was naka libre kami ng sakay pa-uwi... Bongga dba! kahit hindi kilala ai pinara namin para lang makalibre. (baga nah talaga leyps namin...)

Tapos, pumunta sa house ng lola q dahil my part 2 nah kainan in connection sa binyag ni Baby Thad q... Saya talaga! Puro nalang kain... Tataba talaga aq n2 ng bongga! rar!

My day was kinda tiring but I really had fun... AND SUPER BUSOG.

*Credits to lugar lang for inviting us sa ila house. Na busog jud mi! :D
*Credits also goes to my Tita for cooking my request... My favorite Halang2x. Tank u! (and also for the other dishes... axixixixixi)

Stronger With Each Tear

2010-01-23T10:16:00.001+08:00

Note: Hindi aq nag i-emote. Isa lang po itong music review nah palagi qng ginagawa dd2 sa blog q. So, wag nah mag-isip ng ibang bagay. Salamat. ^_^

This song is entitled Each Tear by Mary J Blige. Hope you like it... ♫♪

There’s something that I want to say,
But I feel I don't know how.
Until I just can’t hold it one more day,
So I think I let it out.

You’re on my mind more than I may show
You’re in my heart more than you may know
And the last thing that I want,
Is to you to fall apart.
Your future will be clearer,
I want you to remember.

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be...

We can’t change the things,
That we done, that’s in the past.
But fighting won’t get us anywhere,
So if you want, Here’s my hand...

Every night there is one thing I do
I bow my head and pray for you (pray for you)
And the last thing that I want,
Is for you to fall apart
you're future will be clearer
I want you to remember

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what you're meant to be

You're much more than a struggle that you go through
You're not defined by your pain, so let it go...
You’re not a victim, you're more like a winner
And you’re not in defeat, you're more like a queen

In each tear
there’s a lesson,
Makes you wiser than before
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger than you know)
In each tear ( in each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

In each tear (each tear)
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know
In each tear ( Make you so much more)
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

No no we can’t be held down
No no oh noo I I I can’t held down
You you you can’t be held down
We we we can’t be held down

Love

It makes you so much stronger (stronger)
It makes you so much wiser (wiser)
In each tear (in each tear)
And You so close to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak can’t take away you’re meant to be

...

2010-01-21T11:29:00.001+08:00

I know I've been too far all this time...

But still I wish you are doing FINE.

And if ever you need someone you can turn to,

I'm still here. Nothing has changed.

I'm still that someone you once knew. ^^,

LOVE LEFT US

2010-01-19T21:18:00.001+08:00

A guy who recently had a breakup with her girlfriend was asked...

Did you left your GF or she left you?

He smiled and answred...

"LOVE LEFT US..."

Unsa ng Tuon??

2010-01-17T20:01:00.001+08:00

Weeew! SOOOO TIRED aq ngaun... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Bukas ai midterm nah namin at wala pan aqng study... The HORROR!

Sana essay (dahil easy lang... axixixi) para naman hindi nah aq mag memorize ng bongga. Pinaka hate q pah naman ang mag memorize... Grrr!

Sana makapag-aral pah aq ngaun dahil 7-8:30 AM ang exam q. [Ma'am, bakit naman ang aga? 8-9 naman class natin ah!] Huhuhuhu!

GTG... Got to study... Huhuhuhu... !_!

I SEE YOU

2010-01-14T20:29:00.001+08:00

Another music review here. (hindi naman obvious noh? I love music kac eh.. axixixixi) This song is entitled I SEE YOU by Leona Lewis. OST (as in Official Soundtrack) of the movie Avatar. I fell in love the very moment I heard this. Nice. :)

[Not really sure if this is the exact lyrics... Kasi maliit pah mga search results sa lyrics n2...]

I see you
I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see

All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more

Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

2010-01-14T10:52:00.001+08:00

I'm here again for another music review...

Never Knew I Needed Lyrics

(ooh) for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)
for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
http://www.elyricsworld.com/never_knew_i_needed_lyrics_ne-yo.html
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here always

who'd knew that i'd be here (who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you're the..
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

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You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So now it's so clear i need you here always.... ♫♪

Leya

2010-01-13T16:37:00.001+08:00

Meet Leya... My avatar... axixixixi

Galing aq sa Pylondra... Pangalan ng race na pinagmulan q ai Ba'ki....

Inspired from the movie Avatar. Join nah rin kau sa Avatar craze... axixixixi

01/10/10

2010-01-10T18:41:00.001+08:00

Woke up early this morning cause of my mother's yelling, nagging, scolding, (I should get used to it... It's like my alarm clock nah.. grrrr) and the song Fallin' For You by Colbie Caillat. Kaya inspired ako this morning. Axixixixixi...

Ng dahil maingay, napilitan ko na bumangon, kahit still so sleepy pah... Did my chores, kumain, naligo at pumunta sa school. Have to edit many pictures kaya napilitang pumunta sa school kahit sunday.

I spent this day mostly sa harap ng computer. Hindi magtatagal, I will be wearing nah "spectacles"... The horror! grrrr

Dahil sunday, so dating gawi kahit mag-isa. I went to Cathedral.

Habang papunta sa church (I was just walking para naman mawalan ng konting fats) I met classmates, friends sa highschool. Most of them said: "Hi Leof! Nanambok ka...". I just smiled and said to myself, "I know... grrrr... Kailangan ko nah talagang mag diet..."

Diet??? Impossible. I passed by Ever Mall and bought takuyaki. (my favorite!! rar!) I can't stop myself. Nanlalandi kasi mga pagkain eh... Grrr...

Pagkatapos mag pray kai Bro, go sa uwian nah... (still on walking mode) I saw this big "M" letter... Nanlalandi nah naman c pareng Mcdo. At hindi napigilin ang sarili, I bought one large fries, one coke float, and a sundae. That's what I call diet. :D

While walking, still I met more friends. And I know what's on their minds when they saw me. "Kaya pala Leof is gaining weight. Look how she eats..." grrrr...

Therefore I conclude, dapat nah talaga aqng mag diet. Kahit mahirap, kakayanin ko.

Nothing special this day, gusto ko lang mag blog... axixixixixi

Have to study pah dahil may bongga aqng test sa Philo bukas... grrrr... gtg...

God bless y'all... Peace out. ^_^

Weeeew!

2010-01-09T21:49:00.001+08:00

Weeew! Just got home from my lola's house. Hindi q talaga alam kung bakit ayaw nah ayaw kung pumunta roon... hmmm... Anyways, I'm here again to blog about my day... So here goes...

Later this afternoon, I got pissed with some people. People I never expected to treat me that way.

[Pede, sa mga wala kasabot, dili nalang tah mo bark! As if u know what I truly feel. Pede hindi mo nah ipa mukha sa akin how "tanga" I am coz FYI, I already know. But I'm trying my very best biya para dili nah. U don't have to make me feel more down pa. U should be comforting me, pero u did the other way. :( Wala nah aqng magagawa do'n...]

I really didn't expect that to happen... grrrrr

----

Because I really got pissed, I treated and comforted myself... Ofcourse, bought myself my favorite "pangpatanggal ng sapot"... ICECREAM!!! Axixixixix... And went to a peaceful place para naman makapag isip2x... Muni2x bah... Sayang at hindi q nakita ang sunset dahil kailangan nah aqng umalis at pumunta sa lola q. Sayang din dahil gusto ko pah sanang mag star gazing, pwo parang walang star na lalabas dahil hindi maganda ang panahon... grrr...

Now, I feel a little better nah... Aq rah ni i-2log.. mawala rani... ^_^

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I got a music review... Na LSS aq n2 the whole day...
"♫♪ Maybe it's true that I can't live without you...
♫♪Maybe two is better than one"

This song is by Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift... Title pala nito ai Two is Better Than One. Maganda talaga... Sobra!

Another song is...
"♫♪'Di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa? "

This is Di' Na Mababawi by Sponge Cola... Sa lahat ng nakakarel8, KAMPAY!!! :D
(Parang hindi ito new, pero gus2 q eh... axixixix)

Eto lang sa ngaun... Gudnytzzz y'all!! ^_^

Last nah to... Promise!

2010-01-01T20:18:00.001+08:00

As I say farewell to 2009, it also comes with a goodbye to someone. (A FINAL goodbye I must say)

It's been so HARD. I ask myself why am I still loving that someone who have broke my heart (ng bonnga); Why am I still thinking of that someone who made me feel so much hurt; Why am I still missing that someone who I know doesn't even miss me; Why I still care for that someone who is the reason why I shed tears. (You reader [if their is any] might think "gaga talaga itong babaeng toh") :(

I never tell what I truly feel to anyone, coz [some] people never understand why I'm acting like this; why I'm hurting so much. Maybe because they are not the one who's been crying; they are not the one who was left behind; they are not the one who loved to much; and they are not the one holding on to someone who is gone. I never tell them because they expect me that I have moved on completely (bcoz that's what I'm telling them).

So what's the use of blogging. This is the only avenue where I can share my truest feelings. I don't have readers anyway (or maybe a few).

So balik tau...

I really want to stop this crap feeling. (I'm doing my best biya) Bcoz I know aq rah ang alaot when I keep this feeling; I know I'm the loser when I will still hold on. But, ang hirap. I've tried going to other places, have fun with people but it was no use! Even their were guys who tried to win my heart, but still it's him. [undefended champion I say]

But I really should stop this. AYOKO NA! Goodbye nah talaga...

Last nah pag eemote nah ito ng dahil sa kanya. (I hope so)

Still I'm keeping my hopes high and positive thoughts regarding this matter. I know. I hope. And I wish that I will forget him completely.

Yes, I have accepted [that he is really gone and over me] and understood why he did this to me, but can't take why I'm still loving him inspite of everything.

This only means that I should double my effort of really forgetting him... Kaya q toh... Ajah!

Kaya GOODBYE nah talaga...

I will be happy for him...

THANK YOU...

2009-12-31T10:01:00.001+08:00

Weeeew!!! Just arrived from Cebu. So tired but enjoyed everything. From the soothing Mainit Hot Spring (init jud!), swimming sa beach, eating under the stars, and mountain hiking, ito lang ang ilan sa ginawa namin ng family q during our 4 days and 3 nights stay at Cebu. (Sayang at hindi aq nakapag take ng pics. Grrrr)

I don't have time to tell my whole adventure at Cebu, coz I have to make my year end post pa. So here goes...

To my FAMILY who gives unending support, and who understands the whole me... THANK YOU SO MUCH.

To my FRIENDS who never failed to lend me their ears... THANK YOU!

To my COMSCI and PYLON family for all the happy memories... THANK YOU!

To all my TEACHERS who have tought me not just the subject's lesson but also life's lessons aswell... THANK YOU!

To my MARESand GROUP MATES whom I had grown to treasure (and LOVE)... THANK YOU!

To that SOMEONE who've shown me what love is... THANK YOU [and GOODBYE]!

To that SOMEONE who broke my heart (for it wasn´t for you I would never be who I am)... THANK YOU!

To my LORD who gave me this life... THANK YOU SO MUCH!

To EVERYONE who made my 2009 a blast... THANK YOU!

HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!

Goodbye 2009... Hello 2010!!! ^_^

Amping...

Random Thoughts About Love

2009-12-19T15:34:00.001+08:00

Love hurts when you gave it a second chance, but it didn't work out
now all you can do is sit while your heart screams and shout…

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it
happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why
some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails...

Love hurts when you finally gave up and dare to love again
because the one you truly love made you feel like your entire life has come to an end…

I never know that love could hurt me this much…

Love hurts when you've prayed and prayed but still he went away... :(

Bongga!

2009-12-17T21:49:00.001+08:00

I had so much FUN! Thanks to my fellow CS classmates.
We had our Christmas Party just this afternoon. At ang bonggang2x kasiyahan ang naranasan ko.

I was hesitant na sumali at first dahil hindi masyadong nagkakaisa batch namin at may photo shoot aq dapat sa same na araw, pero dahil na-cancel ang photo shoot namin at pinilit aq ng mga kaibigan q kaya GO aq sa join…

At hindi naman aq nagsisi sa pag sali. It was so fun! Everything was a blast! Kahit hindi bongga ang food, bongga namang kasiyahan ang naranasan namin.

It made me smile, laugh, giggle until hindi na aq makahinga! Bongga talaga! I never had that kind of fun for a while nah, kaya I’m so thankful sa nag cooperate at nag participate.

Until now, I am still wearing the same smile gaya ng kanina. And when I remember the happenings, it makes me giggle jud. It was a memory not to be forgotten and to be treasured forever.

I’m gonna blog about the whole event soon. (Maybe next year nah, together with the pictures. I have to get a copy pah… ^_^)

A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all!

Keep safe and God Bless everyone!

Pretending or Not?

2009-12-09T19:17:00.001+08:00

Pretending is to give a false appearance of being, possessing, or performing blah.. blah... Ayon yan kay Mr. Dictionary.

When I laugh so hard, or just in a happy mood, my friends/classmates would say, "Sus! Pa pretend." Ewan! I don't know if I am now truly happy or pretending. Haizt... Basta my goal is to be happy, specially if his around. So that he'll think that I'm so ok and so much better without him. Is that pretending?? ahahahahaha

It's been more than three months nah... But still I can't say that I've completely moved on. Ang hirap naman kasi araw-araw ko xang nakikita. [grrr! Xa lang naman ang kauna-unahang lalaki nah minahal ko ng bonnga... *sigh] But now hindi nah aq lost, unlike before. I'm not that little girl who cries so much dahil kinuha sa kanya ang paborito nitong chocolate... :P Basta I can't wait to graduate (sana naman) and to get out from this school (NORSU). In that way I'll forget him COMPLETELY. Hindi ko nah inaasahan na maging friends pah kami. May galit aq sa kanya, at baka may galit din xa sa akin. [Wala aqng pake!]

Pretending or not, I DON"T CARE. Basta all I know is that I'm really moving on. I know I will really forget him someday, somehow. [I'm really keeping my hopes high on that.] I know I will fall in love again and say, "Sarang een ga yo?"

Keep safe and Godbless... ^_^

PORQUE :(

2009-12-09T09:14:00.001+08:00

Solo-solo na mi cuarto
Hende ta puede durmi
Bira-bira na cabesa
El dolor yo ya cinti

Ref: Porque pa contigo yo ya kere?
Como bula lang tu ya perde

Cho: Porque contigo yo ya eskuhi?
Ahora mi corazon ta supri
Bien simple lang iyo ta pidi
Era cinti tu el cosa yo ya cinti
Ta pidi milagro bira'l chempo
El mali ase derecho
Na dimio reso ta pidi yo
Era ulvida yo contigo

Todo-todo yo ya dale
Ahora ta aripinti
Sobra-sobra el dolencia
Tormento para vivi

Repeat Refrain and Chorus

Bridge
No tu distorba
Y no atraka kay baka
palmadia yo contigo
Nunca accepta
Si tu ay bira por dolor ya cinti

Porque contigo yo ya eskuhi?
Ahora mi corazon ta supri
Bien simple lang iyo ta pidi
Era cinti tu el cosa yo ya cinti

Repeat Chorus

Ooohh..
Porque contigo yo ya eskuhi?
Ahora mi corazon ta supri...

I Just Want to be HAPPY

2009-12-08T21:58:00.001+08:00

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy
Just wanna be happy

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY

♥Yourself

2009-12-07T21:40:00.001+08:00

You should love the person who's been with you through the most trying times.

Who lied just to make you feel better.

Who never stop believing in your weird complicated excuses.

Who face consequences of your wrong doings.

Who encourages you to stand after every downfall.

Who manages to be the strongest even in you weakest moment.

LOVE this person for this is all you got in your darkest hours.

♥LOVE YOURSELF ♥

Strong

2009-11-27T22:14:00.001+08:00

STRONG
Jordyn Taylor

Bet you thought that i'd be broken.
Mascara streakin' down my cheek.
Devastated, out the door way;
In a daze, a state of disbelief.
I bet you liked that; seeing me get mad.
But, baby i wont satisfy your need.
I've already been there, done that.
I'll be fine, even if you leave.

Lalalalalaaa ohhh
i dont need you anymore;
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
and don't you know,

That You, were the one that made me strong;
you made me stand up on my own,
with every cruel intention, you helped me find my
independence.
yeah it's all because of you,
that i have the strength i do,
to turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin'.
Boy i'm thankin' you.
Boy i'm thankin you.

Thinking back on how you changed me,
everytime, you tried to put me down.
even though you really hurt me,
underneath, myself is what i found.
so take a look inside these eyes now,
and say the things you want to say to me.
cuz i've already spread my wings out;
and your the one, the one who set me free.

Lalalalalaaa ohhh
i dont need you anymore
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
and don't you know,

That you were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence
yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashin'
Boy im thanking you,

For all the tears i cried
for all the sacrafice
for all the drama
'cuz in the end it made me stronger
so trust me i'll be fine
baby i'll survive
without you, in my life, but i want you to know

that you
were the one that broke my heart
but i won't fall apart
no.. im so moving on
cuz babyyy

You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence
yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashing

Boy i'm thanking you,
one that made me strong
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
Boy i'm thankin you
one that made me strong
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
Boy I'm thanking you
Lalalalalaaa ohhh

Changed

2009-11-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

Changed my password...

Changed my blog template...

At baka aq nagbago narin... "Over!" hehehehehe

Got a new blog template here... :) Gonna personalize this soon if hindi nah masyadong busy...

Keep safe and God bless... :)

:)

2009-11-21T18:46:00.001+08:00

Before I Let You Go

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you love me
Made me feel, oh, so right

But now I feel lost,
Don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holdin' back the tears
I'm trying with all my might

Because you've gone and left me
Standin' all alone
And I know i've got to face
Tomorrow on my own
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'coz it's true, baby, oh yeah
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say "i love you"

I wish that it could be
Just like before
I know I could've given you
So much more
Even though you know
I've given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and everyday I reminisce
'coz baby it's you
That i'm always dreamin' of

Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
I know someday, somehow
I'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'coz it's true, baby, oh yeah
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say...
So before I let you go
I want to say "i love you"

...

2009-11-18T19:48:00.001+08:00

Don't ever give up if you still want to try.
Don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love someone if you can't let him go. :'(

*wink

2009-11-16T21:55:00.001+08:00

To see how I survived and how truly happy
I have become without them,
is the sweetest revenge to those people who have hurt me... :)

2009-11-13T21:00:00.001+08:00

*sigh

I want to post something here, but I don't know how to start.

I want to say something, but I'm not sure if it is the right thing.

I want to let my feelings out, but I don't know how people will react.

I just want to pour out my emotions, but... *sigh :(

Argggg...

Really not liking this feeling... :'(

I will take a rest muna, to escape this crap feeling...

Whatever… Whatever… Whatever…

2009-10-25T19:08:00.001+08:00

If I’m not watching TV, I’m using the computer. If I’m not using the computer, I’m watching TV. (Nyahahaha) This is what I basically do every day. If I’m not doing both, I’m probably sleeping, playing with baby Thad, walking around the school, with friends or in the comfort room. But I seldom do these things. [I eat in front of the TV or computer, kaya hindi xa counted… hehehe] I tire my eyes by looking at the TV or computer screen 15 hours a day. That is 24 – 15 = 9, at least I have 9 hours of sleep. hehehe But if I have my overtime eh ibang usapan na yan *wink!

Coz Leofhila can’t help it, she is addicted. Nyaaaah…

The following are the top channels that’s why I can’t get my eyes off the TV.

1. MYX or MTV. So Luurrrve music so these two music channels are in my top list. I like MTV most because they have shows like Sweet sixteen, The Ex-Effect and many more cool shows.

2. ETC, Lifestyle Network and Travel and Living. My secret (no one knows this, I guess… hihihihi)dream job is to be a host of a TV show which goes around the globe, taste different delicacies, travel, eat, explore and whatever. (kahit one of the staffs raq, uki nah.. ahahaha) I really want to travel, eat different kinds of food, and because of these channels I can go to many places. (makalagot lang jud kai maglaway q sa mga pagkaon... SOOO TEMPTING! *grrrr)

3. HBO, Star Movies, Cinema One. I love movies. One of my favorite is Bucket List. I plan to make my own bucket list soooon. I’ll blog it if meron nah…

4. ABS-CBN. Kapamilya ako. I never watch GMA shows. *eeeew! Soooo I don’t like! Ahahaha… Shows I love from the Kapamilya network are ASAP (da best!), Banana Split (sooo funny) and Primetime Bida shows.

5. Disney, Cartoon Network, Animax. I admit, I still watch cartoons. There is a child in me paman.

I guess these are the top channels. Next are my top reasons why I can’t pass a day without using a computer.

1. Work or school projects. Yearbook stuffs, school stuffs, deadlines to meet and whatever.

2. Socialize. Check all the accounts (Email, Facebook, basta tanang account).

3. Blog Hop. I love blogging, so I can’t let a day pass without visiting my favorite blogs.

4. Edit galore. I love editing pictures (in photoshop). This is my hobby since I knew how to use photoshop.

I guess these things are part of my system nah. The TV and computer are one of the best things that were invented. These things makes me busy, learn something, escapes me from boredom and… makes me HAPPY.

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Two Down.

Defense with Sir Saing and Sir Lusares are done! weeeew.. Finally...
Glad coz both have positive outcomes. Thank YOU!

To everyone who helped us, THANKS A MILLION TIMES! ^_^

Just Want To Breakdown

2009-10-18T15:18:00.002+08:00

:(

Life's been so tough right now. So many things to be sad about. One is my STUDIES. So many things to do, but so little time. So many projects, so many deadlines, and I'm worried about my grades. *sigh... I'm not certain if I can graduate next year. *sigh again... My parents are expecting too much from me, and I know I will fail them. *sigh.

BUT I KNOW EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT... ^_^ (in time, it will)

Just Whatever

2009-10-14T15:15:00.001+08:00

Time: 1:00 pm

I'm tiring my eyes again (owiez naman eh !_!). Currently watching TV. I can't help it man gud. I'm a TV addict. (Actually a TV and computer addict... No cure for this nah!) I should be studying, but eto nah naman aq, nagmamatigas ang ulo.

Just finished watching a movie starring John Lloyd, Bea, Anne Curtis, Luis, Angelica and an actor I'm not familiar with. (I so like John Lloyd. Duh!! Siya lang naman ang actor na gusto ko sa local scene eh...) The other day, I also watched One More Chance (again starred Papa John Lloyd and Bea)on Cinema One, and Forgetting Sarah Marshall on HBO. And as always, I make conclusions everytime I finished watching a movie. I want to share these conclusions to you all. (as if may nagbabasa ng blog ko ^_^)

CONCLUSION # 1:Even how nice you are to a person, even how you treat them right, loved them with all your heart, gave everything to them, be nice to them, still some will end up hurting you and dissapoint you. Sad but true.Even if you treated them right, this doesn't mean that they will always return your kindness, and this also doesn't mean you have escaped "the being hurt" part. This is LIFE, this is REALITY... and reality BITES!Just want to point out that being nice all the time is not bad (duh! ofcourse not!), but being nice to the point of neglecting your feelings, and being considerate of people more than yourself, I guess that's not right nah. Sometimes you have to be mean para you know nah... *wink!

CONCLUSION # 2:I've learned that everytime we get hurt, we should carry it and face it. Kailangan natin pasanin ang sakit, hawakan ito (not literally.. hehehe) so that in the right time we can let it go and free ourselves from pain. Letting go and moving on is so hard (I bet it!), but this is LIFE, this is LOVE. We can't expect a happily ever after ending. Their will be a time in our lives when we get hurt, so face it and let go... ^_^

CONCLUSION # 3:I know that God has reserved someone for me. Someone who will asked me to marry him and bring me to the altar, someone who will raise a family with me, and someone to grow old with. God got someone away from me, but I'm sure He's exchanging it with someone sooo much better. I know someone out their will prove to me that hindi lahat ng mga lalaki ay pareho.(I thought he [referring to "my mistake"] will prove it, but I was wrong... *sigh)I know somewhere, somehow, someone will teach me to love again. SOON! Abangan... In theaters nation wide.. Hehehehe...Yes, I'm still mending a broken heart and mastering the art of letting go. Soon I'll have a masters degree nah, at hindi nayan matatagalan pah... ^_^

I guess these are the top conclusions I got from the movie. I have to study pah.. :(

God bless and keep safe always! ^_^

Hiling

2009-10-11T19:29:00.001+08:00

I seldom like OPM songs. I'm into Rihanna, Taylor, Beyonce, Demi and many more. But na iba ang ihip ng hangin. I super like Silent Sanctuary's HILING. Inaabangan ko parate ito sa MYX or MTV... So nice jud. AS IN!

Minsan di ko maiwasang isipan ka
Lalo na sa t'wing nag iisa
Ano na kaya balita sayo
Naiisip mo rin kaya ako

Simula nang ikaw ay mawala
Wala nang dahilan para lumuha
Damdamin pilit ko nang tinatago
Hinahanap ka parin ng aking puso
Parang kulang nga kapag ika'y wala

(Chorus)
At ihiling sa mga bituin
Na minsan pa sana ako'y iyong mahalin
Ihiling kahit dumilim
Ang aking daan na tatahakin
Patungo...

Ala ala mong tinangay na ng hangin
Sa langit ko na lamang ba yayakapin
Nasan kana kaya, aasa ba sa wala

I so much like this song♥

2009-10-08T13:10:00.001+08:00

I still remember
the day that we met
I hung onto every word you said
Asked me to surrender
And thats what I did
And you broke my heart again and again

So now you are sorry
Like you are in love
But where was your "sorry" when you broke it all off

I told myself never again
There ain't no way I'm letting' you win
Because I keep remembering when you played me

(Chorus)
I cried me a river
I cried me a sea
I cried me an ocean
I cried me a stream
(I'll cry out...)
Im fresh out of tear drops
You got me empty
Im out of emotion
Got nothing in me
And I woulda done anything in the world for you
I woulda done anything that you told me to
I cried me a river
I cried me a sea
And I aint got nothing left in me

You cant have my number
Dont wanna be friends
I dont care to see you now and then
Its not that Im bitter
Its just that Im done
My heart finally said enoughs enough

So now you are sorry
Like you are in love
Well you wasnt sorry when you messed it all up

Just on case your not clear
And you think theres a chance
Theres no way your getting near
This or have me again

Until hell has frozen over
you need to understand
You'll ever get with me again

I cried me a river
I cried me a sea
I cried me an ocean
I cried me a stream
(I'll cry out...)
Im fresh out of tear drops
You got me empty
Im out of emotion
Got nothing in me

Narci Moments With Baby Thad

2009-09-28T22:28:00.001+08:00

Eto nah po si baby Thad ngayon... Big nah... hehe... How time flys...
This angel really brought happiness to us. Even though he gives us sleepless nights (nocturnal kasi eh... Tulog sa morning, iyak galore naman sa gabi), sulit naman eh coz his cry is like music to our ears (chaka!) and his smile is like the most beautiful painting ever...

Playing libat2x... hikhikhik....

Pasiklit...

Bleeeh! Showing tongue...

Ni smile xa...

"Hi ate Gang..."

Bsag na2log, hala go sa samok...

^_^

"Baby Thad..."

"Hahaizt ate Gang... I'm trying to sleep."

I'm in a deep slumber... Zzzzzz

Medyo the pics are not good... Phone camera man gud.. hihihi

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BTW, gonna blog about our IPR soon. Nasa draft pah... hehe... Sa ngayon matutulog na muna aq...

Keep safe everyone! ^_^

"Me and my heart got issues"

2009-09-20T19:50:00.001+08:00

Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should stab you or kiss you
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues

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Sa laing bahin...

Gonna blog about our Pylon IPR maybe tomorrow... Soooo tired pah but a lot of FUN... BTW, na2nok q ug tuyom (sea urchin) for the very first time... Naka xperience najud q... hihihihi...

"ouch! Na2nok q... I'm sowry..."
(laughs out loud)

Na2nok nah, gakatawa rah ghapon... Sak2 bah nah?? hihihihi

Bye for now... God bless y'all! Keep safe... ^_^

Admitting

2009-09-12T21:10:00.001+08:00

I admit,, I'm missing him. *sigh
I miss his hugs.
I miss his touch.
I miss his nose. (I miss pinching it)
I miss his eyes. (I don't look at them anymore)
Basta, I miss him.

I guess missing him is normal, ayyt? I JUST miss him. Nothing more, nothing less (wala nai pakapin sa bubot). The pain still stays. Waz pah nawala... Ain't easy. :-) But I'm doing fine.. So fine. ^_^ So much better...

"It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright , OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry"

2009-09-10T11:34:00.001+08:00

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

And now I'm ready and now I'm ready
And now I'm ready to be extraordinary

Into Photography ^_^

2009-09-09T21:38:00.001+08:00

I'm into photography nah... Had fun taking pictures, so I love it nah... hehehe... Here are some of my shots. :-)

"Bulak"
(Dili man obvious nga bulak ni sa??? hehehe)

"I'll Be Here For You"
(Had fun with these kittens... So narci... hehehe)

"Dead"
(Denudation??)

"Blue"
(My fave color... ^_^)

"Locked"
(Wala rah...)

"Bangko"
(Wala ra again...)

ALL WE'D EVER NEED

2009-09-01T23:30:00.001+08:00

Boy it's been all this time,
and I can't get you off my mind,
and nobody knows it but me.
I stare at your photograph,
still sleep in the shirt you left,
and nobody knows it but me.
Everday I wipe my tears away,
so many nights I've pray for you to say.

(Chorus)
I should have been chasing you,
I should have been trying to prove,
that you were all that mattered to me,
I should have said all the things,
that I kept inside of me and maybe,
I could have made you believe,
that what we had was all we ever need.

My friends think Im moving on,
but the truth is that nobody knows it but me.
And I've kept all the works you said,
in a box underneath my bed,
and nobody knows it but me.

But if youre happy I'll get through somehow,
but the truth is that I've been spinning.

(Repeat Chorus)

It was all we'd ever need.

Oh, thought it was all we'd ever need.

I should have been chasing you,
you should have been trying to prove,
that you were all that mattered to me,
you should have said all the things,
that I kept inside of me and maybe,
you could have made you believe,
that what we had was all we ever need.

Was all we'd ever need

Nice song...

When God Made You

2009-09-01T22:49:00.001+08:00

It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I have never been so sure of anything in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

Bridge:
He made the sun
He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
Cause my world just can’t be right
Without you in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true

Tag chorus:
He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you He must have been thinking about me

>>nice song...

One Day

2009-08-22T18:09:00.001+08:00

One day I can say, "Finally, I'm Over You"
One day, I will be able to stand next to you without wanting
to hold your hand...
Somewhere down my journey, I will fall in love again, I KNOW I CAN...

♫♪

2009-08-22T13:56:00.001+08:00

"Only music can let us sing...
Only music can make our feet dance...
And only music can let our mind reminisce back to our past...
But what's important about music is they can be the voice of what we feel inside, especially
when we are mute by the words of our heart. "

That's why mahilig talaga aq mag post ng mga kanta sa blog q [or kahit saan...] Soooo... Eto na naman aq... Sing with me... hehehe

Just go
There's nothing inside me that still feels connected
To you
To me you're already gone
I got a new love now, yeah
She's my new love now
And she loves me so
Takes me where you never took me
Although you tried too
Her eyes, they read so true
So different from the way it was with you

>>Some of the lyrics of Just Go by Jesse Mccartney. First heard it in the radio, and i think its nice... hehehe

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
and how I wish you knew
even now

>>Even now by Barry Manilow. Forgot about this song, [but crap] a friend played it non-stop. So again I like it napud.. hehehe... Naigo man gud sa lyrics.. yeah! I admit it... Even now :-(

You're beautiful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are, who you are
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional
You never you think you measure up
Never smart or cool, or pretty enough
Always feeling different from all the rest, oh
You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
I think you're perfect in the skin you're in
You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are, yeah
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

>>So love this song... Exceptional by the oh so exceptional JOJO...

Eto nah muna sa ngayon... Expect more... nyahahah

Keep safe everyone... ^_^

Single and LOVING it...

2009-08-14T21:02:00.001+08:00

"I admire those people who can stay calm despite too much pain... But I love those who cry for a while but after the tears have fallen, you'll see a real fighter the moment they start to smile again." ^_^

(ILOVE and admire myself... wahahahaha)

There for I conclude that being single is better. I am super enjoying my life now.

So much things to be happy, to be thankful for and to be in love with. Nandyan mga friends q na walang sawang nagsusuporta sa akin. hehehe... I sooo much love you all... Nandyan kapamilya q who gives me baon everyday and who inspires me... I love you all... hihihi... Nandyan si God who gives me strength everyday. Thanks a lot Bro! I super love You. Last but not the least, MYSELF. I'm super in love with myself for being strong, and being a fighter. hehehe... (hindi naman masama dba?)

And.... ahahaha... I'm currently enjoying suitors... More choices, the better. ahahahahaha...

Keep safe and God bless everyone...

The Gift

2009-08-11T20:22:00.001+08:00

Sayang at hindi q nasaksihan ang mga pangyayari...

But anyways...

Meet baby Thaddeus Zane... Born August 6, 4:04 am, weighing 2850 grams.

Thank God, ate had a normal delivery. But nagkaproblema dahil nilagnat si baby Thad one day after he was born. It was UTI daw... :-( Maybe because ate had UTI when baby Thad was still in her tummy... Hahaizt... Pero now everything is okiez nah. Nakauwi na cla galing sa hospital. (They stayed 5 days their.)

Excited na aq to play with him na... pero he always sleeps. Grrrr... hehehe

Eto lang sa ngayon... Keep safe and God bless everyone! ^_^

^_^

2009-08-09T15:03:00.001+08:00

Weeee!! Natapos din aq sa bonggang panglalaba... Sarap ng feeling.. hihihi... Laba dami, labango... ^_^

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Hmmm... I admit that my previous post was kinda mean, harsh, and evil. But I think it's normal naman dahil sa napagdaanan q. That post was my way of expressing what I really feel. It was the product of my anger and hatred. Kaya sana maintindihan nin.u aq... ^_^

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The face of a brokenhearted girl... ahahaha

Hmmm...

Having a broken heart (for the second time... CRAP!) is still so hard for me. It's like the world is playing a curse on me (amard!). That the world is a dark place. That nothing is beautiful. Plus the emotional pain I'm feeling. (Arrrg... Sakita bai!) But despite all the struggles, I have to learn how to get through the day. Because life will move on even if I choose not to. Having this feeling completely SUCKS! I would be better off dead. But I eventually realized that I still have my family and friends, and I know they will help me get out of the black hole I got sucked into. This is my chance to spend time with people I love and people who loves me. And most importantly, I can focus on myself. Because during the relationship, it was just all about him. Yes, I made everything revolve around him, gave him too much and didn't leave enough for myself. Maybe I didn't have enough time to love one person who truly matters, and that person is ME.

Even though my experience of love was kinda bad, I know I'm lucky I've experienced and felt it rather than being not to. ^_^ And I'm thankful for it. I know it will make me a better person and maybe even the best.

Now, the person that once loved me and whom I loved so much doesn't exist. He will be a dream nalang (nightmare... hehehehe) and a product of my imagination. Thinking of the good times (hindi kasi mapigilan ang pag-iisip) make me smile rah. Unlike before, it makes me shed unstoppable tears. !_! I had always thought that he's just the person who can make me smile but I realized that I have so many things in my life that pleases me (my famly, friends and me... hihihihi) Now I'm glad that I've learned to live my life without him, at ang pinaka bongga, I never thought I could be this happy again. Yeahey!

Although he gave me a bad impression of mostly everything [from boys being all the same, that I can't trust them, that boys are liars, cheaters and all nega things], still nothing changed. I'm still the same, still not your ordinary kind of girl. hehehe... Having experienced it didn't made me a man hater, but learned to be cautious next time and protect my fragile heart from men.

I'm slowly moving on (slowly but surely... hehehe). I accepted that his not really for me. That someday God will tell me, "Here's the one I have created just for you." (just for me rajud.. hehehe) And when that time comes, I will be so much ready.

I know I'm going somewhere with this "moving on stage"... hehehe... ^_^

Keep safe and God bless everyone... :-)

Karma

2009-07-31T20:31:00.001+08:00

"What goes around comes around

What goes up must come down"

A little consideration was all I'm asking. Gamay nga hangyo na don't ever let me see you and her together. But I guess you love seeing me HURT. It makes you happy when you see me cry, and suffer pain. It rises up your ego! We broke up less than a month pa, but here you are making your moves to a girl. Are you that selfish? Are you that cruel? Are you that insensitive? Is your heart hard as stone na? A little consideration, is that so hard to give? Well... If that's what you really are, then ok! KARMA is waiting for you...

You're a liar! Cheater! Way back when we are still together, I knew you like her na... I knew it from a woman's gut. But I never paid attention to that because I trusted you with all my heart. Who is the LIAR now? Well... That's you... KARMA is coming for you...

You gave me so simple reason for you to really break up with me. So shallow, so mabaw that their is something in it that makes me wonder. I should have known. You planned it all. You made my fault a passport so you could really break up with me. You had that hidden agenda so that you can make that move to that girl. Well... Ikaw na... KARMA is fast approaching for you.

You are GROSS. You're the same person to those who you criticize. You criticize the cheaters, liars, chickboys, and to those "nag-unayanay", but wait, you're eating up your own words! [Next time, watch out on what you say, maybe you're just talking about yourself.] Ni banda ra nimo tanan nimong kipang sulti. Imo rang ki tulon imong ki suka. Luod ka! Well... Some people are really like that. KARMA is at your back na! Waiting, planning to make the best move. GOODLUCK!! Wahahaha

What do you think of the organization you're in? The gods of Olympus? Ever so pure? Ever so clean? Ha? So don't ever speak ill of the organization I'm in. And dont't ever think that I'll do what they are doing coz I'm not like them. Now, ikaw ra ang na-unay sa imong thought na akong buhaton. LUOD ka! You disgust me! Well... That's the real you! You revealed you're true color. KARMA is at your front na! Very prepared to strike! And it will strike you hard!

I wish everything for you and that girl. I wish her all the enjoyment from playing with my old toy. And for you, I wish you can get what you really wanted. [From the looks of her, I guess she can give you that.] ENJOY! Wahahaha...

"I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green.

I hope when you're in bed with her you think of me.

I would never wish bad things but I don't wish you well.

Could you tell by the flames that burned your words"

Someday...

"I know You dont really see my worth

You think your the last guy on earth

Well i've got news for you

I know i'm not that strong

But it won't take long

Won't take long

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me

The way, i want you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day i'll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

Someday, someday "

*This is my blog. I can put everything I want. :-P

Walang katapusang EMOTE

2009-07-26T18:05:00.001+08:00

I know, a beautiful butterfly will soon land on that withered flower and make that flower bloom again...

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hahaizt... I can't believe that these things are happening... *sigh... *sigh again...
u can "like" her whatever or how many times you want... Anyways I will be leaving that "Freakin' Book" soon so that I can't witness what both of you are doing. [That means less hurt for me.] But for my friends in FB, I will be leaving [again] but I'll come back when the right time comes. When I'm ready najud... (charoot...) and moved on... hahaizt...

I'm too tired nah... Tired of everything...

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maiba naman aq...

I'm so excited to the one who will be wearing this pair of baby shoes. Hope my ate will have a safe and normal delivery. I'm so excited of him na. May papa-iyakin na naman aq. ahaha... It is soo much fun when you make a baby cry, then make him smile after... (Try pagud)... It's nice seeing his smile after shedding those baby tears.. hihihi...

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Someone smiled to me today. He's not someone special or anything but I'm just glad he smiled. hehehe... Ni tagad nah xa.. hehehe

Keep safe and God bless y'all... See you soon...

:-(

2009-07-25T19:01:00.001+08:00

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

And these are the moments I MISS SO MUCH.. :-(

I miss you...

I have to...

2009-07-20T12:33:00.001+08:00

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to

♫Broken-hearted Girl♫

2009-07-20T12:19:00.001+08:00

♫You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl♫

I Still Believe

2009-07-16T09:13:00.001+08:00

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

Too Much

2009-07-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

Everything is TOO MUCH and everything is hurting TOO MUCH that's why I really have to let go. No begging this time. No stopping. No saying "please don't let me go." I have to wake up to what's reality. Reality says you're not for me, and I'm not for you, that we belong to two different worlds and our likes doesn't meet. Blah.. Blah.. Blah.. Blah.. Blah and all the blah blah reality.

I have to use my brain [and not my heart] coz all these time I'm making myself stupid, dumb, and a piece of crap. I have to think of my welfare and not yours, I have to care of myself and not you, I have to make myself a priority and not you, and lastly I have to love myself more and not you.

I just so wish you never did all those things. (You know what those things are.) Because of those things it really made me feel that I'm so stupid. But it already happened, [what am I suppose to do?] Because of those things, I wish I could format my brain [and heart] so that those memories will be gone and it will not even leave any trace. Pwo saonz, dili man q computer.. hahaizt...

You say we are into two different worlds. I'm in a world you don't like [or a world you hate]. (I'm in the UNDERWORLD... Hahaizt...) Let me just tell you this, yes we are into two different worlds, but it doesn't mean we have to be caught in between. Coz from the start, the worlds where were in doesn't have anything to do with us and what is us. Wala silang kinalaman sa atin. Pwo imo mana, that's what you think. Waz naq mah hemz ana...

Every time I wake up, I still feel so loving you, still wanting you and still longing for you :-( Now I so wish that one day I will wake up not loving you, not wanting you, and not longing for you... //_- But still I wish for the same feeling coz it was once the greatest feeling I've ever felt. hahaizt... Gugma jud oi...

Now, you're like a stain I want to remove... [Labhan ug maau, butangan ug clorine para makuha jud... Pwo saonz man, ang tindi ng kapit mo, bisag butangan naq ug acid, dli gihapon ka makuha.. Sowz!!]
"You will always be a tattoo, I will always have you."

I leave everything to God... Bahala na si Bro.

I know I can still have that smile... ^_^

Just super take care of yourself P! ;-)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield?

2009-06-27T18:39:00.001+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battle-field

One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

Don't Break My Heart Slow

2009-06-23T08:41:00.001+08:00

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

Hatin' On the Club & White Horse

2009-06-21T10:28:00.001+08:00

HATIN' ON THE CLUB

Now this be the last time you did me wrong
No more laying up in your arms
No calling, saying you want me back
I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But Tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car, y'all kissing at the bar
Got me crying

[Chorus:]
Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahh

And you can be mad at me all you want
I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front
Coming out the door with your girlfriend
You did me wrong boy tell me where our love went

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But Tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car, y'all kissing at the bar
Got me crying

Now this is the sound of a broken heart
There's only one reason why we're apart
She never woulda made it to your car
If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my love
We would still have us
I'd still have my love
We would still have us

But now, now we're like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
You took my love
Oh you took my love

♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪

WHITE HORSE

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now

I like both of these songs... Really like it. As in. (Hatin' On the Club is by Rihanna and White Horse is by Taylor Swift) Ang sad ng music video ng White Horse :-( His guy cheated on her... (Mga lalaki talaga, matakot sana sila sa KARMA. hehehe...) Wala pang MV ang Hatin' On the Club, sana meron na. I think Rihanna made this song for CB. Hmmp, bagay lang sa kanya.

Ito lang sa ngaun...

♫♪ na na na na... Stupid girl, I should have known,
I should have known♫♪ *Wink.

2009-06-12T19:23:00.001+08:00

I LOVE him

& I don't know how to stop

I need him

& I don't know if I could stop

I miss him

& I don't know when to stop

He LOVED me

& I don't know why he stopped.

2009-06-10T11:42:00.001+08:00

I was afraid this time would come
I wasn't prepared to face this kind of hurting from within
I have learned to live my life beside you
Maybe ill just dream of you tonight
And if into my dream you come and touch me once again
I'll just keep on dreaming
Till my heartaches end

2009-06-10T11:33:00.001+08:00

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

Weeew!!

2009-06-07T17:42:00.001+08:00

So tired.

Super tired.

As in KAPOI!

My back aches!

My butt aches! (Pila naq ka hours ga pungko man?)

My eyes ache! (Pila naq ka hours ga comp man?)

And my ----- aches!

As in KAPOI for many reasons!! SUPER!!

Basta KAPOI! Period!

Maiba naman ako...

Weeew!! *BIG SMILE! At sa wakas, I'm done na with the design for the program of our University's Charter Anniversary (Our Pride, our Hope, our Future - Negros Oriental State University). Salamat at natapos ko rin dahil bukas (Monday, June 8) ang deadline. So meaning, poster and tarp to go. (ang walang katapusang poster and tarp "nalang". ahahaha) Hoping to finish it before our EIC gets mad... . *Wink. (Hi janj! hihihi..)

BTW. I'm mad at someone and liking this song. (Beautiful Days by Kyla)

I see beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
You’ve touched my heart so deeply
And I can’t thank God enough
For all the beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
Everything is just so wonderful
Every little thing is just so beautiful
When I spend it with you

You came along
In an unexpected time
It was so divine
Knowing you are mine
It feels so right
When I look into your eyes
I never knew that love
Could make me feel this way
I can’t wait for the day
When I can truly say

With you I felt fine
So right

Keep safe and God Bless everyone! B-)

I Told You So

2009-06-03T09:11:00.001+08:00

Suppose I called you up tonight
And told you that I love you
And suppose I said I wanna come back home
And suppose I cried and said I think I finally learned my lesson
And I'm tired of spending all my time alone
If I told you that I realize you're all I ever wanted
And it's killin' me to be so far away
Would you tell me that you love me too
And would we cry together
Or would you simply laugh at me and say

"I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawlin' back and askin' me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I've found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again"

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand
Would we get that old time feelin'
Would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began
Would you tell me that you miss me too
And that you've been so lonely
And you've waited for the day that I returned
And we'd live in love forever
And that I'm your one and only
Or would you say the table's finally turned

Would you say "I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawlin' back and askin' me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I've found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again"

"Now I've found someone new and you will never break my heart in two again"

Broken Strings

2009-06-03T07:53:00.001+08:00

It tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

The truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

2009-05-16T17:24:00.001+08:00

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

Boy daw...

2009-05-15T16:30:00.001+08:00

Here is an Ultra Sound photo of my ate's baby. It's a baby boy daw. We are pretty excited with it. Specially my father. He already have plans with the baby. He's going to bring it in his office, teach him how to fix broken parts from cars or motor bikes, wash the car and all boy stuffs. He'd long to have a baby boy since, but unfortunately we are all girls.

I'm glad natanggap ng parents ko. Ang buti talaga nila that's why I'm sooo thankful na sila ang parents ko. hehehe... My ate will due this August daw. Hoping she will have a normal delivery.

Keep safe everyone!!! ^_^

2009-04-13T10:46:00.001+08:00

PAIN. "Yes Ma, I am." By these words my Mama's tears started falling. I can feel the pain my mother was feeling while my ate uttered those words. I can feel her confusion, her anger, her pity. I really hate seeing my mother cry, I just can't bare it. //_-

SISTER ACT. Like my mother, I feel pity and anger towards my sister. Pity because of the situation she's in and anger because of the action she did. She didn't even think of us while she did it, she didn't even think of herself, her future. *sigh Still I am confuse, so confuse. :(

NOTHING WE CAN DO. We can't do anything. Even though we wish that this is just a nightmare, we have to wake up and face the reality. Even though what happened brought terrible pain to our family, we have to accept and think that it will give joy to us. Even though it is a big responsibility, we have to take it as a blessing, a gift.

BRIGHTER SIDE. There is a reason for everything. God permitted this to happen because He has a wonderful plan for my sister, for us. I know God is always with us, always ready to help us.

Hand in hand, together, as a family we can overcome this challenge and in the end EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. ^_^

PHOTO BY Kaye Ramirez

Ayaw bah... :(

2009-03-19T11:53:00.001+08:00

EXHAUSTED
STRESSED
PISSED OFF
SAD
MINGAW

Dula nalang ta DOTA nn.u ai...

Ayaw bah... //_-

Gasagol sagol nah...

2009-02-24T18:56:00.001+08:00

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Loading.. Processing... - Yan ako this past few days. Hahaizt... Dahil sa malapit ng matapos ang sem, maraming mga bagay nah dapat e comply at hindi ko alam kung ano ang uunahin... hahaizt... Tuloy nagkasakit aq ng bonggang bongga!! ahahahaha...
//_-

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LOVE and all that STUPID CRAP!

"Dahil LOVELESS sa Valentine's Day... " ahahahahaha

It's not because loveless kami, hindi lang namin feel... So nagpagawa kami ng t-shirt... Credits to Jhetai!!

Untitled ni xa...

2009-01-23T13:49:00.001+08:00

Weeew!! Je n'ai posté rien ici depuis longtemps. Je veux poster des choses heureuses, mais dernièrement tout ce que je peux me sentir est la tristesse :(.

C'est l'édition du coeur de nouveau..

Hahaizt!!! Je veux que je puisse vous dire tout, des chagrins de coeur et faire mal je me suis senti, du bonheur que je sens toujours que vous êtes avec moi. Hahaizt!!!

Je veux que je puisse vous crier ma colère! Ma douleur! Je veux que je puisse le crier je VOUS AIME tellement! Personne ne peut vous remplacer dans mon coeur!!!

JE VOUS AIME ET JE VOUDRAI TOUJOURS VOUS AIMER!

That's all folks!!!

Keep safe and God bless...

My 2008

2009-01-01T21:15:00.001+08:00

Good bye 2008... Hello 2009!!!

Thank you for being part of my 2008... I look forward for more years with you guys!!!

The Reason Behind

2008-12-09T08:04:00.001+08:00

*Sigh.

You asked me what is my reason of quitting and I told you my reason. You said my reason is so shallow, people will laugh at it. You tried to stop me but I’m SORRY my decision remains concrete and stiff.

Yes, you’re RIGHT. My reason is so shallow, so low. And you think that the reason I gave you is not the REAL reason why. You’re right again. There is really a reason behind. The one I told you was just part of it.

I’m sorry again because I’m not telling. And no one knows the real reason. Maybe I am just afraid of not being understood.

I am not a quitter. I stop if and only if there is no more hope and no more chance. I know there is always hope and chance but still I decided to do it. [I guess I’m a quitter after all.] I know I can do the other option and I have another choice but because of the real reason I have only one option and one choice.

Now, I’m going through something I can’t understand. I don’t know where to go and I don’t know who to go to. I guess I should be ready for the word ALONE. And I’m not in myself lately. I go to school with clouds in my mind, not white clouds (I’m not in cloud 9) but dark clouds. I guess this is all part of the decision I’ve made and the reason behind it.

I think I will continue what I’m doing. Hiding the hurt, the sorrow, and the tears by simply telling that I’m OK, by SMILING all through the way, by LAUGHING as if I’m not worrying, and by TALKING a lot as if I know what I’m saying. I guess things will go this way. But I know this is not for long.

“There is always a RAINBOW after the RAIN.”

Kaila mo ug KAPOI?

2008-12-04T20:57:00.001+08:00

It took us 1 week to make the booth and 1 day to demolish it. It was super exhausting. Hakot dito, hakot doon. Hahaizt... Kaila mo ug KAPOI?? At dumanas pa ng dugo. Kawawang presidente natusok ng dalawang 1 inch nails. Ouch!! Sakit!! Pinadala namin siya sa ospital para makasiguro na ligtas at hindi ma tetanus ang presidente.

Habang nasa ospital ang presidente hakot parin kami ng hakot. Hindi na namin alam kung saang lupalop ng daigdig namin ilalagay ang mga bamboo, plywood at nipa buti nalang at binili ng teacher namin ang mga iyon (except sa plywood).

Isa isang nag-aalisan ang mga tao. Hanggang sa dalawa nalang kami na natitira. Buti nalang at dumating na ang aming presidente at first lady kaya tuloy parin sa trabaho. Kawawang presidente kahit napakasakit ng paa ay tuloy parin sa paghakot, pa'no kasi siya nalang ang natitirang lalaki. Napagsunduan namin na sa bahay ng first lady ilalagay ang mga plywood. So go na naman kami sa bonggang bonggang PAGHAKOT.

After 55 years tapos na ang akala naming walang katapusang paghahakot. 7 pm nang nakauwi ako sa bahay namin. KNOCK OUT ang lola pero nag-internet parin at nagblog (salamat at walang naka-upo sa trono ko... wahahahaha) Bahala na! Addict kasi sa computer... I have 3 days of rest bitaw... hahaha...

Nakaplano na kung ano ang gagawin ko sa tatlong araw na rest day. Matutulog, kakain, magcomputer, manonood ng TV, kakain, kakain ulit, magcomputer, manonood ng TV, kakain at matutulog... hahaha! Balik na naman ako sa aking dating buhay... Buhay na walang kabuhay-buhay... hihihihi...
Hanggang dito nalang ako. Matutulog pa ako ng bonggang bongga!

"I wish to sleep and never wake up..." Diba bongga 'yon?? hahaha

Keep safe y'all!!

Murag Others

2008-12-04T09:49:00.001+08:00

NORSU's 81st Founding Anniversary ay tapos na. Ang masasabi ko lang ay ito ay masaya at puno ng tawanan (kaha?). From the making of the booth to staying and jamming with fellow ComSci was "FUN". Even though the booth was boring in the first place, we do things to liven the atmosphere. We sing from the top of our voices (even yabag) using our mp3 phones, play stupid games or just make fun of the "MURAG OTHERS" passers by.

ComSci 1: Dili naman na cya ComSci...
ComSci 2: Bitaw! EiVey Jen naman nah cya!
ComSci 3: Kana pud cya... Ni shift na cya ug tha nerseyng...
ComSci 4: Ciya pud... Ni shift ug EyhArEm... Hahahaha

That was a good laugh!! Kasi naman may mga tao na wala man lang naitulong sa paggawa ng booth, sila pa ang may lakas na mang lait. Merong iba na hindi talaga dumadaan sa booth. They go the other way around, para bang merong INIIWASAN (Hmmm... Sino kaya?). At lastly, merong iba na taas nuong lumalakad at para bang walang nakikilalang tao sa paligid. Hahaizt... Mga tao talaga, kapag may kasamang iba, KINAKALIMUTAN na ang mga dating kakilala.

Duh!! The hell we care of people who doesn't even care! Ang importante, mahalaga at ang mahalaga, importante. hahahaha

It's just a nice feeling being with them again. Before I was one of the "Murag others". I remember one said, "Mura naka ug others Leof, wala nakay time namo..." Hahaha… Sorry nagud, I’m only human, born to make mistakes!! Ahahahaha

Peace y’all... Keep safe and God Bless!! ^_^

This is FINAL

2008-12-02T21:49:00.001+08:00

Been thinking of this for a month now, and finally I have a decision. I don't know if the decision is right and I don't knowif I will or will not regret the decision but I have to do this.

I don't want to go but there are reasons why. It is hard. It is hard leaving something or leaving people you've grow fond being with. It is hard knowing you'll miss all the fun and the laughs you've experience while being with them. But... saonz man... waz nah magawa...

I just want to say THANK YOU. Thank you for the things I've learned during the stay. Thank you for being there, sa tawanan, sa tuksuhan, sa iyakan man o kadramahan. And lastly thank you for the FRIENDSHIP. I'm leaving but I hope the friendship still remains. Pero I know things will change.

Ai basta!! I don’t know what is going on my mind but I have to really do this.

Sorry to the people whom I never confronted before making the decision. I know you'll just stop me. I wish we could have more time to bond cause [maybe] we will no longer have the chance pero saonz man...

If I Were A Boy

2008-11-28T11:42:00.001+08:00

Applauses for this song. So LOVE it... TOTALLY!!

Boys HATE it. Maybe because the song hit their noses, or slap their faces, or kick their balls(ahahaha...*OUCH). But for me the song is not dissing men or something, I think it is showing both sides. Boys HURT girls and at the same time girls HURT boys.

Many responses for the song. Boys even change the title and some of the lyrics.

Original:
But you're just a boy
You don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Changed:
But you're just a girl
You don’t understand
What it means to love a man
Someday you’ll learn to appreciate your man
You don’t listen to him
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken him for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a girl…

This only means that girls shouldn't give all the blame to the boys, and same with the men. Both sides have 'PAGKUKULANG' so both should UNDERSTAND each other. Notice that both songs end with 'BUT YOU'RE JUST A BOY/BUT YOU'RE JUST A GIRL'

So much for this, if given a chance to be a boy for a day(matagal q na 'tong pinapangarap... ahahaha) I'll be:

1. Waking up late and don't take a bath. Boys can really go anywhere without taking a bath. They just wet their faces and hair and viola they are on the go.
2. EAT ALL I CAN. Boys can eat all they can without worrying about their body. grrr
3. Pee anywhere. So that I'll have an experience 'peeing' outdoors. hihihihi
4. Court a girl. To know how it feels to court a girl and to know how it feels to get busted. Lastly,
5. PROVE a GIRL THAT all BOYS are not the same. Duh! Self explainable...

I'll just do five things... Because I love being a girl [and I can't do everything in just 1 day... hihihi]. And besides I don't like how boys pee... Ewwww!!! You guys know what I mean ayyt??... hihihi

Keep safe and God bless!!

MgaYangongo.com

2008-11-18T10:47:00.001+08:00

Makalagot jud!

Kabalo mo sa feeling na EXCITED na kaau mo mo-pauli sa inyong balay kay atlast magspend na mo ug time sa imong family kay gikan ka sa kakapoy, kaguol ug uban pa, daun pag-abot nimo sa inyong balay PALAGUTON ra ka sa imong igsuon, YAWYAWAN ra ka sa imong mama, ug KASAB-AN ra ka sa imong papa?

Makalagot sa?
Samot ug kakapoy...
Samot ug kaguol...

Txsan ka na: 'Gang uli na.' Daun ni uli na ka, and then kasab-an ra pud diay ka... Akong breakfast: palaguton sa igsuon; Lunch: Yawyaw ni mama; Dinner: Kasaba ni papa. Wow! What a Meal! Nan!! Asa ka ana!! Sadya sa?? Perting sadyaa!!

Duh!! Ga YAWYAW napud si Leofhila Leah B. Duran... Saonz... Asa ko magyabayaba??!! Kinsa akong yabayabahan??!! Sa akong BLOG, diba! Hahaizt... :(

Sa mga wala kasabot: Paxenxa... Kay dako kong BISDAK!
Sa mga kasabot: ayaw ra ko ug tagda...
Sa mga nakarelate: Saonz nalang...
Sa mga wala ka relate: Good!
Sa mga wala ray ek: Keep safe and God bless!

Happily Ever After?

2008-11-15T02:57:00.001+08:00

Some things start just fine, but end up not-so-happily ever after.
There are events in life that started so nice, so good, so fine and makes one think that there is no room for mistakes or problems in the long run. But not all good things end with happy endings [like in fairy tales... ayyt?]. It doesn't always end up with the princess marrying her prince charming, or the poor getting rich, and the evil witch gets punish because of her evil deeds. Some end up with the princess being heart broken, or the poor becomes poorer, and the witch being the winner.

So sad that these things happen... But this is life's reality. Not all good things end good and not all terrible things end up as it is. There are twists in life that makes life so enjoyable, so beautiful and so pleasant to live [even though with ups and downs].

So, in the long run one can learn lessons, discover new things, and acquire knowledge. Diba bongga? ME, YOU or ANYONE can be in a bad situation but still gets something good because of it. Haaay,ang ganda talaga ng life. Boggang bongga! Then we can use these lessons, new things, and knowledge to continue another chapter of our lives. Super bonggang bongga talaga!

SO THEREFORE I CAN CONCLUDE THAT:
Some things start just fine, but end up not-so-happily ever after... BUT there is always a PART TWO (or even a part three... hihihi).
And if it is not a HAPPY ENDING then it is NOT THE END.

Yaw2x napud qw!! Keep safe y'all... God bless ^_^♥

For a CHANGE

2008-11-10T00:54:00.001+08:00

Dahil puno na ng KADRAMAHAN itong blog ko, naisipan ko na e-post itong mga gawa ko(mga edited pictures po). Ang mga ito ay ginawa ko habang ang mata ko ay naka dilat pa(kahit 3 na ng umaga...), in other words overnight o kayay EMO mode (napapaganda ko lang ang isang bagay kung: masaya ako, malungkot, o kakay sinusumpong ng damdaming hindi maipaliwanag).
Enjoy!

Exhibit #1: Sunset

Photographed by: Argey Catacutan
Click [link] for the original photo.

Exhibit #2: Smiling

Emo again...

Exhibit #3: Walking Away

May rainbow pa... Click [link] for the original photo.

Exhibit #4: Girls

Click [link] for the original photo.

Mga babae talaga... Click [link] for the original photo.

Exhibit #5: Stars

Love the stars. Notice nn.u ang heart? Click [link] for the original photo.

Ito muna sa ngayon... I have lots to show pero tinatamad na ako... And besides it is 2:00 ng madaling araw (but wala parin akong planong matulog... hihihi).

At staka pala... Kung meron kayong oras, visit my deviantART Gallery. Just Click the [link]. Salamat!

LOVE.PAIN.HURT

2008-11-09T20:06:00.001+08:00

Just read a post while blog hopping and can't help myself but ---. Natamaan ba ako from one of the lines? :( Ang sakit... ang sakit sakit... (Kadramahan again...)
Kinuha ng isa sa kasamahan ko ang monitor cable para hindi ko basahin ang post at para hindi na tuluyang bumaha ang opisina sa kaka-iyak ko. So balik ang atensiyon ko sa movie na pinapanood namin.

Lalaki: "Maawa ka nga sa sarili mo. Itigil mo na yan. Mapapagod ka lang. Mapapagod ka lang umasa. Mapapagod ka lang maghintay. Mapapagod ka lang umasa na mamahalin ka rin."

Babae: "Kahit minsan hindi ko naramdaman na nakakapagod mahalin ka, NGAYON LANG..."

Grrr... Natamaan na naman ako sa movie.

Hanggang kailan ba ako magkakaganito? When will I stop hurting myself?

--to be continued--

...

2008-11-08T07:01:00.001+08:00

"Until I Get Over You"

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

____________________________________________________

Woke up so depressed and with this song on mind(Until I get Over you by Christina Milian).Don't know why I'm so depressed, but maybe because I was dreaming a beautiful dream... Until my office mate woke me up. Crap! And now I can't remember a single event in my dream. All I know that it is so beautiful I don't want to wake up.

_Bali oh!! Bsag sa damgo nalang... grrr...
Good morning nalang to all the early risers!!! Keep safe and God Bless.

LOVE.PAIN.HURT

2008-11-08T02:29:00.001+08:00

Just heard a 'so disturbing song' so I decided to write this post.

*Sigh.

*Sigh.

No matter how much I tried to hide my emotions, still the pain is so disturbing. Remembering the memories together are like knives stubbing me gazillion times. I tried to be NUMB, tried to be feeling dead... But it was no use.

Too many QUESTIONS...

Too many 'What ifs'...
What if I battled for what I really, truly FEEL? What if he still LOVES me? What if there is a CHANCE? What if there is still HOPE? But I can't turn the hands of time. What else can I do? I'm too scared to take the risk (again). The risk of trying to talk to him. The risk of working things out. The risk of [maybe] hurting ourselves (again).*Sigh :(

Too many 'Hows'...
How can I avoid him when something keeps us CONNECTED? How can I forget about him when memories are everywhere (and he never leaves my mind)? How can I learn to HATE him when in fact I [still] LOVE him. How can I not LOVE him when he is all my heart wants, my heart longs, and my heart yearns. *Sigh.

I decided to leave things as they happen. "Mahitabo ang mahitabo." And just react after the effects.
I lost him... and I could not afford losing myself.

BUT... Still I will HOLD on... And stop until---

LOVE HURTS

2008-11-04T23:43:00.001+08:00

What is in the ayer(ayer... ayer...)?? Why are people so EMOTIONAL??? :(