Last nah to... Promise!

As I say farewell to 2009, it also comes with a goodbye to someone. (A FINAL goodbye I must say)

It's been so HARD. I ask myself why am I still loving that someone who have broke my heart (ng bonnga); Why am I still thinking of that someone who made me feel so much hurt; Why am I still missing that someone who I know doesn't even miss me; Why I still care for that someone who is the reason why I shed tears. (You reader [if their is any] might think "gaga talaga itong babaeng toh") :(

I never tell what I truly feel to anyone, coz [some] people never understand why I'm acting like this; why I'm hurting so much. Maybe because they are not the one who's been crying; they are not the one who was left behind; they are not the one who loved to much; and they are not the one holding on to someone who is gone. I never tell them because they expect me that I have moved on completely (bcoz that's what I'm telling them).

So what's the use of blogging. This is the only avenue where I can share my truest feelings. I don't have readers anyway (or maybe a few).

So balik tau...

I really want to stop this crap feeling. (I'm doing my best biya) Bcoz I know aq rah ang alaot when I keep this feeling; I know I'm the loser when I will still hold on. But, ang hirap. I've tried going to other places, have fun with people but it was no use! Even their were guys who tried to win my heart, but still it's him. [undefended champion I say]

But I really should stop this. AYOKO NA! Goodbye nah talaga...

Last nah pag eemote nah ito ng dahil sa kanya. (I hope so)

Still I'm keeping my hopes high and positive thoughts regarding this matter. I know. I hope. And I wish that I will forget him completely.

Yes, I have accepted [that he is really gone and over me] and understood why he did this to me, but can't take why I'm still loving him inspite of everything.

This only means that I should double my effort of really forgetting him... Kaya q toh... Ajah!

Kaya GOODBYE nah talaga...

I will be happy for him...

THANK YOU...

Weeeew!!! Just arrived from Cebu. So tired but enjoyed everything. From the soothing Mainit Hot Spring (init jud!), swimming sa beach, eating under the stars, and mountain hiking, ito lang ang ilan sa ginawa namin ng family q during our 4 days and 3 nights stay at Cebu. (Sayang at hindi aq nakapag take ng pics. Grrrr)

I don't have time to tell my whole adventure at Cebu, coz I have to make my year end post pa. So here goes...

To my FAMILY who gives unending support, and who understands the whole me... THANK YOU SO MUCH.

To my FRIENDS who never failed to lend me their ears... THANK YOU!

To my COMSCI and PYLON family for all the happy memories... THANK YOU!

To all my TEACHERS who have tought me not just the subject's lesson but also life's lessons aswell... THANK YOU!

To my MARESand GROUP MATES whom I had grown to treasure (and LOVE)... THANK YOU!

To that SOMEONE who've shown me what love is... THANK YOU [and GOODBYE]!


To that SOMEONE who broke my heart (for it wasn´t for you I would never be who I am)... THANK YOU!

To my LORD who gave me this life... THANK YOU SO MUCH!

To EVERYONE who made my 2009 a blast... THANK YOU!



HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!

Goodbye 2009... Hello 2010!!! ^_^

Amping...

Random Thoughts About Love

Love hurts when you gave it a second chance, but it didn't work out
now all you can do is sit while your heart screams and shout…

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it
happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why
some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails...

Love hurts when you finally gave up and dare to love again
because the one you truly love made you feel like your entire life has come to an end…

I never know that love could hurt me this much…

Love hurts when you've prayed and prayed but still he went away... :(

Bongga!

I had so much FUN! Thanks to my fellow CS classmates.
We had our Christmas Party just this afternoon. At ang bonggang2x kasiyahan ang naranasan ko.

I was hesitant na sumali at first dahil hindi masyadong nagkakaisa batch namin at may photo shoot aq dapat sa same na araw, pero dahil na-cancel ang photo shoot namin at pinilit aq ng mga kaibigan q kaya GO aq sa join…

At hindi naman aq nagsisi sa pag sali. It was so fun! Everything was a blast! Kahit hindi bongga ang food, bongga namang kasiyahan ang naranasan namin.

It made me smile, laugh, giggle until hindi na aq makahinga! Bongga talaga! I never had that kind of fun for a while nah, kaya I’m so thankful sa nag cooperate at nag participate.

Until now, I am still wearing the same smile gaya ng kanina. And when I remember the happenings, it makes me giggle jud. It was a memory not to be forgotten and to be treasured forever.

I’m gonna blog about the whole event soon. (Maybe next year nah, together with the pictures. I have to get a copy pah… ^_^)

A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all!

Keep safe and God Bless everyone!

Pretending or Not?

Pretending is to give a false appearance of being, possessing, or performing blah.. blah... Ayon yan kay Mr. Dictionary.


When I laugh so hard, or just in a happy mood, my friends/classmates would say, "Sus! Pa pretend." Ewan! I don't know if I am now truly happy or pretending. Haizt... Basta my goal is to be happy, specially if his around. So that he'll think that I'm so ok and so much better without him. Is that pretending?? ahahahahaha

It's been more than three months nah... But still I can't say that I've completely moved on. Ang hirap naman kasi araw-araw ko xang nakikita. [grrr! Xa lang naman ang kauna-unahang lalaki nah minahal ko ng bonnga... *sigh] But now hindi nah aq lost, unlike before. I'm not that little girl who cries so much dahil kinuha sa kanya ang paborito nitong chocolate... :P Basta I can't wait to graduate (sana naman) and to get out from this school (NORSU). In that way I'll forget him COMPLETELY. Hindi ko nah inaasahan na maging friends pah kami. May galit aq sa kanya, at baka may galit din xa sa akin. [Wala aqng pake!]

Pretending or not, I DON"T CARE. Basta all I know is that I'm really moving on. I know I will really forget him someday, somehow. [I'm really keeping my hopes high on that.] I know I will fall in love again and say, "Sarang een ga yo?"

Keep safe and Godbless... ^_^